Jim checked into school yesterday but they don’t have to come back until tomorrow night (holiday weekend). Having a couple extra days is wonderful but we’re both also ready for him to just start already!! This living in limbo is leaving us both almost drained.

My babe isn’t handling this all too well. We’ve talked about him leaving in front of her and to her. But she has such limited understanding both because of her age and because of her receptive-language delay. She starts crying heartbroken tears and then has frequent meltdowns for a couple hours, so we’ve not talked about Daddy leaving *too* much. We’re not sure how much she understands but we can tell she definitely senses SOMETHING big is about to happen. I’m so heart-sad for her. While she’s much more dependant on me than DH, she is definitely in love with her daddy.

Everything happening at once hasn’t helped matters. The move, being apart from DH for those few days, being in different places several nights in a row, having to sleep on the floor (the movers broke her bed but we at least have her mattress now), the running around we’ve had to do…its all piling up on her. Her meltdowns are more frequent. She’s reaching out for control over anything she can. She’s been more clingy. I’ve had more patience than I thought I would but I’m definitely reaching my limit, esp. when my own sleep has been more difficult lately. I usually handle her not sleeping through the night pretty well (lots of practice!!) but not lately.

Rumor has it that they’ve laxed things up quite a bit and they guys are getting frequent breaks during school now. It will be wonderful, if true, to see him more often than we originally expected but I’m not sure if it will make it harder on E. When we were back in WA, he’d come home between PT & work and then again for lunch. Sometimes it was SO tough dealing with her when he left b/c her little heart was so sad. It makes me worry about these breaks. I wouldn’t trade those times he was home as it really gave the two of them much-needed time to connect and the same will go for this coming year. Still, some days I’d wish that he wouldn’t come home so I didn’t have to deal with the aftermath and I’m sure the same will go for this next year.

I’ve done some searching and found a couple churches I want to check out. I know I need to get involved and get involved soon or I won’t do it. I’m also planning to go to PWOC on post this week. We’ve had so much going on these past two weeks but I don’t want to wait any longer or, like church, I don’t think I’ll end up getting involved until the next session (January) and I can’t wait that long to get a consistent time when I know I’ll have adult conversation! LOL Regular adult conversation and God are gonna’ be the keys to surviving!! I e-mailed the LLL leader for the area and they actually have a meeting this week and its very closeby, so that will be nice. Hopefully I can find out about any local playgroups while I’m there.

I certainly don’t WANT Jim to leave but I’m ready for it to happen. We need to find our groove and find some stability.

I hear my babe waking…

So my Beth Moore study is going really well.  I have *loved* learning so much about Daniel and the others. But now we’re into the second half of the study.  Its all about eschatology.  Escha-what?  That was my response.  And I should have taken that as my first clue as to how I’d do with this half.  I feel like a total nimwhit.  I really, really, REALLY want to understand this half.  But I can’t wrap my brain around it.  And the further I get behind in it, the harder it is to want to sit down and do it.  I generally consider myself to have a fairly decent brain in my head but this study makes me feel so dumb.  I just can’t get my head around it.  *sigh*

I did manage to get Trillian installed today.  Its on the other computer (the one stuck in Germany).   I couldn’t remember the name of the program, so I had to do some digging. I haven’t turned on any of my IMs in so long, it’ll be nice to be able to chat with people. (hint, hint! LOL)
E’s hearing test went fine.  She tests totally within normal for speech & language development.  Part of me hoped it would be as simple as fluid in the middle ear since that is a fairly easy fix.  We weren’t expecting it though.  I’ll get in touch with our EI coordinator tomorrow to get moving on the language preschool.

Elizabeth is down for her nap and I'm a bit bored.  I had planned to go outside and read while she napped but clouds came out and now it is fairly cool.  I am SO ready for steady, warm weather!!! 

Congratulations, Lisanne, on your little GIRL!  I hope the rest of your pregnancy continues to go smoothly.
We had a busy morning.  I went to get Elizabeth re-registered for child care.  Her registration had expired and I planned to just wiat until we got to Germany.  I have her orientation Friday and then I can start using hourly care again, assuming the nasty lady from the infant room hasn't moved up to her new room.  I saw her at the commissary last week and my blood just started to boil.  If I never have to see her again it will be too soon.  We also had to run to the post office (our new house doesn't have mailboxes yet, so we have to go there to get it…major pain!), the commissary, clothing & sales and to the printer's to drop off some flyers for a committee I'm on.  When she wakes up from her nap, we need to run back ot the printer's and to Target to return a couple shirts, to Michael's for a couple new cake pans that are on sale (I have an order due Friday and I want a new pan for it), to the learning store for a new puzzle and then to get Jim.  (Have I mentioned how much I hate having one car?!!)

My new Beth Moore "Daniel" study starts next week and I am really excited about that one too.  This will be my first Beth Moore study.  I have been wanting one that delves into just one book of the bible and this one came up at just the  right time.  My regular Wed. night study was ending and PWOC was endin for the session.  ANd I've been wanting to do a more intimate study with some PWOC ladies.  And, so God placed this one in my lap.  YEAH!  I'm going to another study tonight at our church just to tide me over until next week.  I like the lady who is leading this one a lot.  She teaches a young adult Sunday school at church, so I think we might try her class this week.  

elizabeth is up, so I need to run.  Have a good day!