Whine ahead
I’m in a total funk right now. Things to share that I’m not ready to do yet. But, more than that, I’m feeling lonely and blah this week as I have so many other weeks. This summer has seen my few close friends move away. And I don’[t think that’s something you ever get used to doing. Then we had R&R and then went on a last-minute trip to Indiana. Wonderful! But now I’m here, alone. Next week my base bible study and MOPS start up, so that will be good. But this week I could really just use a friend to come over and chat with me. We’ve gotten some new neighbors but none that I’ve really connected with. The one newish neighbor I have connected with just had a baby, her husband is getting ready to deploy and her in-laws are here. Plus she has three other kids. So her plate is full. And so I’m lonely and blah.
I’ve had a hard time making friends at this base. Good friends. The kind you call up just to shoot the breeze for 10 minutes. The kind you can have deep conversations with. To some degree I just haven’t put myself out there enough. We moved at a weird point for me with being so far pregnant and over the holidays. By the time the holidays were over, I was ready to pop. And by the time I was getting really moving again after giving birth, programs like MOPS & my base bible study were ending their session. Come last fall, again I was in a weird time with Jim deploying. I put myself out there more but never found a close friend. And now we’ll be leaving within the year. So it seems pointless. Yet it isn’t, I know. We could still have another year and that could be an awfully lonely year. And Jim is coming home. And other things. Times like this we could just put down our roots and I could find close, lifetime long friends.
I’m just in a total funk.
I know it’s nothing like a deployment, but John’s been on 100% travel for the last 7 weeks, and I’ve been in the blah too. It’s funny, because I’m super lonely, but I refuse to pick up the phone and call anyone! Almost like I don’t want to break out of the cycle of yuck. I’ve been pushing myself to get out of the house at least, and that helps some–so even if I don’t have adult interaction, at least I’m not cooped up with the teething yeller. [[Hugs]]
Maybe this will cheer you up :0)…my current situtation: I’m still living in a Hotel (4 months now), with no car, no phone, no internet, and I don’t speak the language. Next week I’ll be thrown into the country (think sheeps living in our backyard) with still none of the above. But now add to that, that we just learned that our household goods, which should have been sent on it’s trip across the pond starting in May/June, never left Texas meaning we won’t have our household stuff until December, 7 months after if was packed up! I know for sure you can laugh or commiserate on that with me! I’m not sure which way to feel not that it’ll change anything! Otherwise I’m hoping Jimmy is almost home and you’re in the going out of your mind excited part of the deployments. You’re definitely in my thoughts!!
seems delicious like my cupcakes