Life’s a Dance

We’re settling in pretty well.  Both of our cars are now here.  Our furniture is due in 12 days though I’m hoping it comes next week instead.  The satellite guy came to install our dish but we couldn’t get it b/c the huge trees out front block the line of sight.  So we have to go with cable (blech! The packages are terrible.).  When we called the cable company to get our internet installed, we had a three week wait.  We called Tuesday for the TV and they are coming Sunday (morning at that, who sends out install guys on Sunday mornings??).  So we’re glad we don’t have the same wait but found it weird.  It’ll be exciting to finally get more than two channels! 

Tomorrow is my 38week appointment.  I’ve decided to opt out of a cervical check again.  If I had one and found out I was dilated, that would freak me out b/c we don’t have childcare until Sunday.  Even knowing I could be dilated for weeks still.  And I had one and found out I wasn’t at all dilated or just barely dilated, that still wouldn’t reassure me since I was barely 1cm the day before I gave birth to Elizabeth.  In addition, I don’t want to do anything that will risk infection, an accidental puncture of the membrane, etc.  Anything that could set a chain of events off that could a) mean a labor before the in-laws come (meaning, a labor without my husband) or b) lower my chance of a successful VBAC is NOT something I want to do. 

My anterior placenta has moved up nice and high.  So there should be NO problems with it possibly attaching to my C-section scar.  YEAH!!!!  And baby has finally decided to STAY heads down.  He’s been down for over a week now, so I think he’s staying put.  Just yesterday I was feeling around and I think he’s in full ready-to-go position (looking at my back).  He’s been settled on my left/looking right for most of the pregnancy.    

I’m still feeling good.  Getting rather tired, of course.  Sleeping is becoming difficult (which doesn’t help the tired bit).  But feeling good.

I think our doula is going to come over tomorrow evening. She wants to
meet with me at least one more time and she wants to meet Jim.  I’m so
excited to have found her. I really believe she’ll be invaluable to the labor and delivery, whatever the outcome.

Elizabeth started crying this afternoon.  “I want you to put me night-night.”  Sobbing heart-broken sobs.  I finally figured out what she meant…when I go to the hospital to give birth, Jim told her that he’d be the one to put her to bed.  She sobbed and sobbed for, what seemed like, forever.  “I no want you to go to the pink hospital.  I want you to put me to bed.”  *sigh*  and *sob*  Jim has put her to bed several times in the last year (I’ve always had to be out of the house) and it has gone pretty smoothly.  But she’s never been away from me overnight.  I’m not sure how much she understands that I won’t be home at all in the night when she wakes up.  I know Jim will take good care of her (if for no other reason than he knows I’ll kick his @ss if he doesn’t!!! LOL) but I still worry.  And that just leads me to worrying about how the adjustment will go once we’re all home.  She is SOOOOOOOOOO excited to have him home.  She can barely stand the wait.  But reality will set in eventually and I worry about that transition, especially since she is sooooooo very 3.5 (or nearly) these days!  It will all work out, I know.  But in the midst of my anxiety, its a worry all the same. 

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