Life’s a Dance

That is the total number of housI’ve slept in the past six nights.  :sigh:  When I gave birth, I had no idea I’d STILL be sleep-deprived six months later.  And that it would seem so much worse a) without Jim around to watch her during the nap while I napped and to take some of the late-night wakings and b) since I’ve had so many more nights of sleep deprivation.  That brief period of sleepiing great also got my hopes up.  Then five weeks of sickness & recovery hit.  She wasn’t sick last week and I have no idea why she has slept SO much worse.  I was having flashbacks to six months ago with the way her schedule was off.  I was in a lot of pain last night and didn’t fall asleep until 1.  1:15 her “alarm” goes off.  She was awake until FOUR (then slept until 7)!  Most of that time she was content (she had her moments!!!) but I was not.  I was SO tired.  I could feel my boby get more tense the longer it went on and the tears rolled for most of that time.  I hated it because I could feel resentment towards her growing.  I was just so tired.   Time to dig out the No Cry Sleep Solution Book again.  I have faith it is going to help me this time since it had helped pre-sickness.  That faith is the only thing keeping me going today.

On the cute side, she’s learned to stick her tongue out of her mouth and then blow raspberries!    I spent yesterday covered in her spit.  I try not to laugh b/c I don’t want to encourage her  BUT the look on her face…well, it’s just too CUTE!  She gets so serious, does it and then laughs at herself!

Vicki–I guess you take the bad with the good, and although it’s so hard, you should be so proud of yourself.  It’s not easy being a single parent and that is what you are basically doing at this point.  I admire you.  I hope that things even out and that you start getting some sleep.  My thoughts are with you.

Amy-Sorry to hear that you had such a rough night.  Hope it improves for you very quickly.  I agree it is not easy when the guys aren’t around — and mine gets to come home weekends.  Whenever I feel sorry for myself, I think of you.  :)  You are doing a great job and it will get easier.

Lisanne–Vicki said it SO well … the other night when Luke kept us up until 4 a.m. and I started feeling my patience fly out the window, I thought of you doing it by yourself … gosh, how do you do it??? Good luck …